feels like i'm becoming someone else

as if I am no longer myself.

As if, in the process of pruning off unwanted people, trying to block out painful bits with which I can no longer cope alone - somehow, I'm losing track of who I am. As if I am slowly being carved away, til nothing is left.

I looked in the mirror just now, and I didn't recognize myself at all. Who is this person? I wondered. Where is grasshopper? Where has she gone? I have become so much in the habit of hiding everything 'unpleasant' that I fear I'm losing myself entirely.

I don't know who I am.

How can I find myself? Is there a map? Who knows the way?