Tuesday, April 28, 2009
feeding myself
Realizing that this writing is a way to put together the pieces, tell the story of my life in ways I've never had the opportunity to do. Weaving the tapestry.
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I quote others frequently and freely, and do my best to give full attribution. All the rest of the writing here is mine.
I hereby respectfully request: If you like something I've written enough to copy it for your own use, please give full attribution, either by providing a link back to the original writing on this site, or by citing Orts & Leavings as your source.
Thanks!
About Me
- grasshopper
- Grasshopper is, at the moment, still 'under construction' :-) She's trying to learn, and trying to keep a 'beginner's mind' while doing so (hence the moniker). She is also stubborn, willful, headstrong and ornery. She does things her own way. (She's also trying to give up 'being nice'.)
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- subtle emotional abuse...
- seeking strength
- I do not accept the power differential
- credit
- swimming upstream
- is it wrong
- stuck again, or still
- when other people can't perceive your hurdles
- moving on
- images
- power, power everywhere, and nary a drop to
- insecurity impedes clear thinking,
- ack, still going, even if only on fumes
- victim?
- it's all about power
- know I'm going to get hammered for saying this
- more human behavior stuff
- something happy
- feeding myself
- so if I had bad models right out of the gate,
- how we learn to have relationships
- ok, I've got it:
- I think part of it is
- still chewing
- going round in circles
- life isn't fair
- we like people for what they do for us
- parental oppression
- hypersensitive bullshit detector
- you're not allowed to be special
- anger is difficult!
- parenting styles
- remembering HSP
- the problem is
- finishing up "what I hate is"
- all or nothing
- what i hate is
- disconnecting from the family
- Power in relationships
- so, having gone through the whole cycle yet again
- silence
- calling a spade a spade:
- I'm AFRAID
- do-nothing day
- shame attack
- the SILENCE is what kills me
- still offgassing
- The question is
- repeat after me:
- and it's a vicious cycle.
- realizing this is like a trail of breadcrumbs
- abusive families use silencing tactics
- no words
- ah, so
- as my confidence builds
- unburying the true self (hate that shrink-speak, b...
- I have to leave her behind,
- i've tried everything i can think of
- people terrify me
- i can't take it any more
- you must not speak of your pain
- going around the bend
- my ****ING mother
- lancing the wound
- telling my own story
- finding shoes that fit
- autonomy myth
- cog dis
- what is the anger for?
- it's the anger that's hanging me up
- need to be coaxed, not coerced
- moving beyond the anger
- where I get tangled up
- flotsam
- and on the other foot
- people only think about things they think they can...
- why thinking about it doesn't do any good
- Love is an experiental thing
- Lenses: How full is this glass?
- calling your parents (or other adults in your life...
- objects in the mirror
- why is it
- needs
- these people are not my friends
- stop taking care of other people
- ok, I know this is crazy, but...
- severing the connection; or, the ties that blind
- twisted sister
- without a mirror, we don't know who we are
- hungry
- are people like plants?
- Ant & grasshopper, or personal responsibility - wh...
- i ask for so little...
- guilt
- names
- test
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