parents who simultaneously disempower and give you too much power?

Talk about a double bind: A father who accuses an eight-year-old of 'trying to make him look bad', while simultaneously making sure that *she* never feels good about herself. It's like he - accuses you of being this vicious, horrible person while at the same time sticking his foot out to trip you and make you fall down.

It makes my *head* hurt.

Universe: I would like to be DONE with all this now, please.

I would like to wake up in eight or nine hours and have all the angst and pain and fear and shame be GONE, please! And have it be replaced with a sense of peace, happiness, calm self-confidence and serenity.

Relaxed and alert.

Thank you,
grasshopper.